The meat safe and the study desk

I have been wanting to take Venus out for dinner ever since i got my first salary. Finally, we are going for dinner tonite. Now, dont ask me what i had done this long and why it was dfficult planning after-all, dinner! I know its not that difficult, but just that both of us have been having our own things thats kept us busy. On my side there was the uncles death, a few concerts on the weekeneds etc… She had her own reasons. No complaints. But now, i am only going to look ahead at our dinner-nite!

I wanted to make it a classy dinner, not the usual ones, at usual places like some fast food joint or kenzos or something like that. I had pictured both of us dressed in a classy manner, me picking her up from home, candle lit table for dinner, some wine, and a great gift for dear Venus. I also wanted to take her out to a pub for a drink or two before dinner(btw, taking her out for a drink was one of the first ever plans we made, even before we started seeing each other!!he he..). That was my plan. But not all of it is going to be possible tonight. No car, dad needs it. But,i have a concert coming up this weekend, so, dint want to risk messing my voice with chilled beers! The gift…hmm…would love to buy her something, anything, in fact(though, i’m a little tight with my funds, right now!!:-)).

Anyway, its the time that we are going to spend together that counts. I cant wait to see her tonight, to see what she’s wearing, to smell her neck…(ok, ok, i’ll stop). She said she had never had fried ice-cream, so i plan to take her for fried ice-cream. Hope she likes it.

More on the dinner and other things in the day to come…

Coming up, for all those educated cricket lovers: Why i like Brian Charles Lara more than Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar!(now, now, dont get wild, its just my opinion and i’m entitled to have one!)

The day began at its usual pace,which is quite fast these days, because of the increasing responsibilities at home. Got up by 6, had a bath, washed clothes etc…am not going to dwell on them. Sang for an hour or so in the morning,experimenting here and there with thodi and then left for work. Since then, till now(hopefully not for the rest of the day) the question “What if…?” is ringing bells within me.

Firstly, as i was on my way to work from office,some morbid thoughts began to strike me. Though it could be largely because of the passing away of my uncle last week, it wasn’t too pleasant. Ok here is what was running in my mind-my grandmom is alone at home, aided by all the usual old-age problems of blood pressure, sugar, what not! She would be doing her usual household work, as i type this, i know, but couldn’t help but wonder What If there was an emergency! Who would know, would pappu(the guy who stays below our flat) go help her?Will i get a phone call from pappu hearing the worst?What if….Thankfully, i reached office quickly and then spoke to amma(i call my g’mom amma). I guess its at times like these when the power of positive thinking comes into play. I now i had no reason to worry, but the force in my fears were hard enough, not be neglected.

My girlfriend,lets call her ‘Venus’, had been to an interview today. I was really happy for her,because she had applied to quite a few companies and hadn’t heard from them until now. She just decided to play a prank on me saying that she was going on a date with someone this evening. Look, i knew that it was a prank and played along, with some difficulty, i must admit. But that got me thinking on a tangential plane. Venus is one who i really really like and we’ve had a great relationship the past four months. No complaints, everything is going hunky dory. But What If she dcided to leave me for someone else was a thought that loomed large in my head. Normally, i dont yell or get angry or shout at people, but i imagined myself having to face the fact that Venus dint want to be with me anymore and that hurt. Thankfully, i just spoke to her and it felt great to hear her and talk to her. This relationship has been great so far, and i dont see anything major screwing it up. Hope to keep it going…: )!

hafta get back to work now…more later, but i already think the “What if…?” tag is off my mind. Thanks to my new found interest…blogging!

the awkward feeling of having to make the first post in my first ‘ever’ blog. Am not gonna refrain from doing it, this time. Just for the record I am Swarna Rethas, 22 yrs old, Software developer at Tenmiles Corporation, Madras.(i still prefer Madras to Chennai). My interests lie in Music, Sports and Sciences(dont wonder how, i seriously like sciences, c’mon i am a Masters degree holder in Math!)

More in the future, keep your comments coming, will only be glad to see them.